Or is it all in my head?... I am fine tuning it to get myself to doing it 100% - that darn fear factor keeps creeping back in, that self doubt, can I achieve the goals I set for myself? Of course I can! Then why am I still not pushing myself that extra mile?
Excuses - I hate them. I get mad when I hear others use them! But I seem to have let a few sneak back in the last couple of weeks. Is it because I am still in a relaxed frame of mind after the holidays, or is it because I really do fear what will happen when I achieve my goals. How people will treat me... How strange is that. Fear of success. I suppose if it was easy then everyone would be kicking arse!
I know exactly what is letting me down with getting results and it is nutrition. I am good, excellent 80-90% of the time, it is that pesky 10% that is kicking my butt, and not in a productive way. I have started letting that good excuses back into my head "but you train so hard you deserve this chocolate cake".... yes one piece of cake isn't going to hurt, but we had cake two days in a row last week and I went out for lunch three times.... I think that is more than 10%. Slap my head #smh.... change or remain the same Dons.
The exercise side of things is perfect, I LOVE training, I get tingles of excitement during the day leading up to training, I visualise the smashing workout, I know exactly how to tweak my workouts to get that little more pump.. I just have to control what I am NOT in 100% control of, my food.
Not letting external influences get in the way, or be an excuse is my key focus, I sometimes am such a people pleaser, leaving myself out of the equation and then feel blergh cause I have eaten thai, pizza or too much rice at Japanese for lunch the peeps. Time to flick the switch ON FULLY again. I have found since slipping a little on the #paleo diet my cravings have returned (chocolate NOW, must have or I will DIE) which is a great learning curve, reminds me of how great I felt when I started #paleo last year. I still don't miss milk or cheese, but have enjoyed greek yoghurt back into the eating plan now and then. I don't miss bread or pasta at all and am still enjoying my LONG BLACK coffeeeeeee - how I love thee (I think the boy thinks I love coffee more than him, the jury is still out with that one.. all i know is that I have been in love with coffee for over 20 years and a relationship that has lasted that long should be cherished!).
Looking back at my before and after photos from last year is helping me re-focus ALOT! My body shape has changed even more now with my training, so I know I CAN achieve the next steps to totally transform my body shape even MORE.
I received a compliment at the gym the other day - was training chest and decided that I can increase my incline chest press to 12.5kgs dumbbells. Was pressing away thinking how in control & strong I felt (and how Melody would be so proud, and I really need to get up to doing 17kgs dbs). I got up and had just finished doing my push-ups I like to smashout in between sets when one of the older regular guys came up and introduced himself. He said he has been watching me train for months and thinks I am looking great, he said "you have really transformed the way you train and stepped it up a notch, looking good" - It was such a great compliment because I have always admired how he trains, he works with his partner and they totally have transformed their bodies, so I was pretty chuffed and had a stupid grin on my face for the next couple of hours. It left me thinking, if I really step it up to 130%, how awesome would the changes be.....
So 110% used to be my motto & what the guys at the gym call me (thanks to the LJ tank top I have) I might need to get one printed with 130%.
I could be a little too self critical and harsh on myself, but it is the only way to push myself to achieve BIGGER and BETTER results....
Time to put pictures and videos up on my blog, to push me and motivate me even more to smash my goals. My planning is done... time to execute and SMASHITUP @fitbydons style.